The challenges of being grown up…!

In preparing for delivering at an upcoming conference in April, I was asked to send in a short video of 20-30 seconds so that conference participants could get a flavour of what they might experience if they were to join in the session I am to host with the three Pioneer Practitioners of the P6 Constellation… 60 mins later, finally I end up with a finished cut!  Ironic as the the conference theme is “A cut above the rest”… and in that regard my attempts at video recording clearly needed a lot of support, feedback, chiseling and polishing…

I hope you enjoy these two cuts which emerged part way through when hysteria usurped my early dry, cardboard cut-out attempts!

Beyond the hilarity, I realise there is profound point here…. NONE of us begins being really good at anything that is new to us! We have to learn by failing and falling.  We have to try and try again and again. Ask any artist, expert, sports person or sophisticated practitioner/ facilitator and you will get a similar response.  Our best performances, presentations and service come only with years of dedicated practice.  A wonderful elder and teacher of mine – Brad Brown – used the phrase “practice, practice until it becomes your practice.” It resounds in my mind almost daily.

This is a commitment that we in the P6 Constellation ‘Community in Practice’ (CiP) embrace wholeheartedly as we come together in community gatherings, in group supervision sessions and in supporting the trainings we run for people new to the P6 Constellation.  Just as my little experiment with this video demonstrated to me (again): reaching levels of fluency and artistry in our chosen fields or disciplines comes through practice. Artistry comes not only by repetition but by succumbing to the wild, haphazard learning processes that evoke the full range of human emotions. Yes ALL our emotions have a place; all serve a purpose and to deny any of them is to deny ourselves the delights that come from fully accepting all that makes us who we are so that we can become all we have the potential to be.

So, when things don’t quite go according to plan – yes let the tears of disappointment and rage roll; because soon the tears that accompany your laughing with childlike abandon will also flow. This is what it means to be human.  This is what it means to be more fully ourselves, learning to be even more fully ourselves. And when we are, we can quite literally be part of changing the world around us; bringing it into the kind of balance that attends to the well being of all… as did these wolves, when reintroduced to Yellowstone Park.

My message to you is simply this:




and be ready for all that might flow to and through and from you.

The Game of Life – dancing with emergence

After nearly three years away immersed in life, work and PhD… finally I emerge with something to say and something to offer to the world!  Although I have not finished writing up my PhD, I am happy to say I am well on the way.  I hope you enjoy the read and my poems….

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Blogging joyfully

Changing the world – starting with ourselves

When I first was invited to deliver a daily contribution in a week-long conference called ‘Leading Change for a Sustainable World’ in Caux, Switzerland I did not know anything much about Initiatives of Change.  I have been involved ever since – every year in Caux and increasingly within the fellowship in the UK.  I knew when I first walked into this building that I had a place amongst this global community and that there was something for me to be doing to support it and the people in it.  Each year I contribute to different conferences and each year I meet many, many amazing people – who, in their own ways and  communities, are helping to make our world a little bit better.

Caux 2010 Leading Change for a Sustainable World (LCSW) – Louie Gardiner

Caux 2010 LCSW – response-able leadership moving in tune with others


Changing the world -starting with ourselves

Paradox of PhD and Poetry

How very odd!  As I turned to re-enter the highly constrained academic container to commence my doctoral journey – amidst other personal and professional challenges – I found myself writing poetry.  I did not decide to. I did not yearn to.  I simply followed juicy little threads of words and found many tumbling forth.  This was the first to arrive sitting in post-graduate room at Hull University Business School:

Particular Abyss

Whether we gaze out through heavens to the stars

or drive our eyes into the Particular

abyss for answers of the universe; do

we not simply perceive what we are apt to

see?  Patterns of imagination?  Defined

manifestations made so by eyes and minds

that cannot not craft worlds of explanation?

Is ‘all in all’ our most profound delusion?


Perhaps, matter and matters of scale are nought

but orderly illusions made real by thought;

by those who meddle in realms beyond their Selves

in search of truth which lies in etheric shelves?

What consummate distraction by magician

minds who avert our gaze by reaching out and

out; and down and down, to what?  For what?  Where is

THE place these searching souls don’t dare to quiz?


As jet black nights fuel our fears, deluded minds

with unrelenting pace, drive us wild with blind

demands to play the tunes; so devilish hands

can pull our puppet strings and command our dance.

Those veiled rampant powers that yank our clanking chains

have us trip and choke and burdened by our shame,

for what we did and did not do.  Shocked. Bemused.

Caught by fear of blame.  Bewildered and confused


that once again – to make the change, we fail.

So on, on and on we chase horizon’s tail –

to catch the holy grail of hidden truths.

And so the mirage beckons; teases sleuths

who’ll be seduced by promises of fame

and grandeur.  Make your name!  Court worldly acclaim!

Or choose the Noble Quest:  Risk ruthless enmity

over fame or vapid anonymity?


© Louie J N Gardiner 15th October 2014

Following the call!

Here you can hear from one of the P6 Constellation’s Pioneer Practitioners… 

The P6 Constellation came into view in its current form in late 2012 after 30+ years in gestation in Louie.  Coaches who Louie supervised sense there was something in Louie’s practice they wanted for themselves and called her out: “When are you going to offer training – so we can learn to do this for ourselves?”  It took about 12 months from that invitation for Louie to synthesise and find a form that was completely coherent with the complex dynamics she (we) experience within and between ourselves as human beings.  Hear what Ro has to say in her early days of coming to learn how to use the P6 Constellation for herself.

Rowena Lavender on Potent 6 from Gillian Morrison on Vimeo.